If I had nothing to go on but the example of Christians, I would be an atheist. That's not to say that there are not some exemplary Christians; I think there are. I have met some remarkable people who live in a way that I think Jesus would be pleased with. Unfortunately, they are the outliers, and if I had nothing else to go on, I would have to conclude that these wonderful people live better than other Christians for reasons that have nothing to do with their religion.
On the other hand, I think there are good reasons to believe that Christianity is true. I think there is good reason to believe that God exists and Jesus actually rose from the dead. So where does that leave me?
The journey I am on is about trying to find out what is true rather than defending what I or anyone else already believes to be true. So far, this has led me to do two things. First, I earned a Ph.D. in New Testament at Radboud University Nijmegen and sought to answer the question "What are the essential elements of Christianity from Paul's perspective?" And second, I have started a ministry called "Why Should I Believe" which seeks to give people (like me) who are looking for answers a place to ask real questions without being attacked for thinking differently.
With my podcast and blog, I plan to share what I have found with people who are seeking like I am. Some of this will probably agree with what churches teach; some of this will not. However, until I actually look at the evidence, I cannot know which is which. I will make every effort to explain how I came to a particular point of view, so that you can look at my reasoning and make your own judgment.